“When I got home that night, my wifewhen she prepared a meal for me, I held her handtell him, There is something I want to tell you. My wifehe sat down and ate some food while he was readyto listen to me. Again I realized her eyes were showinghe is hurt. I couldn’t even beginto open my mouth. But I had to tell him tolet me know what I was thinking about it.I want to divorce you. I began to speak calmly.He seemed to disagree with my words insteadhe asked me in a gentle voice ‘why?’ I didn’t answer the questionlake. Not responding made him angry. He threw a spoon andscolded me, ‘You’re not a man!’ That night,there was no conversation between us. He was crying forto the one. I knew he wanted to know what it wasit has happened in our marriage. But for sureI could not give him an answer nor a satisfactory reason;he seemed to be nothing to me and my boyfriend movedto Mary. I didn’t love my wife any moreit was to Mary. I really despised my wife!With my heart clearly aware that I’m making a mistake,i wrote a divorce that showed that he (wifemy) he would get our house, car and he would own the stock30% of our company. He looked at the divorce and found itto pieces.The woman with whom I have lived for 10 years appeareda stranger in my eyes. I felt sorry for herthe time, resources and energy he lost but I couldn’tgo back because Mary captured my heartequally. Finally my wife wept loudlyin front of me, something I certainly expected.To me his cry gave me relief.The thought of leaving my wife frustrated me withweeks and now it has continued to improve and becomethe most certain thing.The next day I came home very lateI found my wife writing something on the table.I didn’t even want to eat the food she cooked for mestraight into the bedroom and sleep took me overone because I was tired after eatingthe pleasures of dying a man with MaryThe night I was awoken from sleep my wife was still therewriting. I didn’t mind at all, I covered myself wellto sleep again. The next morning he gave me the conditionsher divorce: she didn’t want anything from mebut he needed at least one month toprepare before she leaves. He asked that inthat one month period for both me and himstrive to live a life of love or normalcy foras much as possible. His reason was smallbut importantly: our son was approachingdo a test in the following month for thatdid not want the child to be affected psychologically because ofour abandonment. This was not a problem for me, I agreedhis plan. But he had an extra requirement,he asked me to remember how I had prayed for days to followespecially our wedding day. She begged me and begged methat in that one month’s time I should becarried from our bed to the door ofoccur every morning. I thought he was going to be crazy.To make our last days free from conflictI agreed with his wonderful terms.I told Mary about the terms of the divorcemy wife. Mary laughed a lot, she found it ridiculous. “Evenusing the cleverness of what divorce is supposed to be ‘,said Mary again in contempt. Me and my wifewe haven’t been in touch since I explained the mission toto the publisher. So I prayed for the first timewe all hugged each other. Our son was very happy with the castingapplause behind us, ‘aah dad kittens motherin his hands’. Her words really blew me awayone by one. From our room to the living room,and then again to the door, it’s over ten metersI carry my wife. He closed his eyes and saidin a soft and gentle voice; don’t tell our son aboutof divorce. I agreed with the title, though I did feel itbadly. I laid her down outside the house.He went to the toilet to wait for the bus for his job with meI drove to my office. The next day,the exercise was easy for all of us. He leaned against his chestmine. I smelled the sweet aroma of the perfume he smelled onher blouse. I realized that I didn’t look for himpay attention to my wife for a very long time. I realizedshe was no longer a daughter. There were facial wrinkles andher hair started to become white! Our marriage has eatenher beauty. For a minute I thought whyI do this to him.On the fourth day I developed a feeling of love between usthey returned. This is a woman who offered to live with mewe’ve been living for ten years now. On the fifth and sixth daysit was clear that our will was growingrenewal. I didn’t tell Mary about this. ModerateAs the month neared, I had the pleasure of carrying a wifemy exercise became easier. Probably dothis work every day strengthened me the most.She was choosing what to wear in the morning. He choseSeveral outfits did not fit her. Then he groped,‘All my clothes are big’. I realizedthat my wife is very low, I think yesfor I could easily carry him. Suddenly somethingit burned me … my wife is in pain and paingreat in his heart. Without realizing it I touched herhis head. Immediately our son came out and spoke‘Daddy is the time to carry your mom to work’.To him, seeing his father carry his mother became a factorvery happy. My wife showed him the signsour son should stand close and hug him lovinglychief. I turned my face lest I change my mindat the last minute. Then I held her in my armsmine from the closet, living room and then tothe door. His soft hand was around itmy neck in love. I hugged her body;it was the rendezvous of our wedding day. But quickhis made me suspicious.The last day I prayed I had trouble even hittingone step. Our child went to school.I held him close and told him I did not notice thatour lives lacked love. I went to my office….I got out of the car even without closing the door. MeaningI felt too late I could change what I decided….I climbed the stairs. Mary opened the door and told her,‘I’m sorry, Mary, I no longer need to divorce my wife’.He looked at me curiously, then touched his headmine. He asked me ‘Are you sick?’ I took his hand awayin my head. ‘I’m sorry, Mary, I said I didn’t want todivorcing my wife. I think my marriage didn’thappy because I do not appreciate the detail of our lives,me and my wife, not that we don’t love each other.I’ve known that since I got married on our wedding dayI had to carry him all the days of our life,I love my wife I won’t leave her until deathwhen it separates us. ‘It was as if Mary awoke from sleep. He stole me a tabletstrong, he leaned on the door and started crying.I went down the stairs and left. I got onflower shop I ordered many beautiful flowers forof my wife. The seller asked me what to write oncard. I smiled and wrote “I’ll carry you allmorning my wife until death separates us ”.That evening I came home with flowers in my hands,a big smile on my face and ran to the closet,I was received by my wife’s dead body in bed.My wife was also suffering from cancerfor several months and I couldn’t figure out whyI transferred my mind to Mary. He knew thathe was going to die soon and he wanted to keep me out of hatred andson if I forced a divorce early.At least in my son’s eyes I seem to be a husbandgood.God help me not to get here.COMMENT ‘AMEN’
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